Exc. 1:20

  This day, I feel very, very down-hearted. Usually at this time in the morning, I declare myself - at least - God (or there above), but today I have an insanely poor self-esteem.
  I regard myself only as the greatest philosopher and allround-genius in the world - through all time. The most handsome human being there is to behold on this planet. The Goodness in itself, personified in me.
  It is sad - I have never earlier before, in my whole life, felt such a self-contempt. Such a disdain for my ego...

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