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Monday, September 5
Counting
I admit it - I have made a quick estimate of how long
it will be until Christmas starts knocking on the door.
I have flicked through one of our Christmas books.
But only because it accidentaly lay on top of one of
the book piles. Honest.
Okay. You've got me. I have even started my Christmas
planning. Just a little bit. But I'm not the only one.
My sister brought up the topic in a conversation we had
yesterday, without my even mentioning it.
As I guess you already know, it is business as usual for me
to start counting down the days to Christmas Eve in
August if not already in June. But there is a crucial
difference this year:
I don't have to. I don't feel the absolute need to
long and dream every day away just to give my life
some meaning. It's not vital for me to have something
big to look forward to.
Not any more.
Christmas used to be this bright, glittering, red and
green lantern that shimmered through the thick grey
fog of everyday life.
Not any more.
I'm free.
posted by Stella at 21:03
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